As if my mood couldn’t get any worse.

suzeinwonderland:

That’s what we’re doing isn’t it, fighting against our own body.
it’s strange, that our body is our own worst threat.
We take these pills to keep our body functioning, without them where would we be? Literally, we’re trying to save our self from our own body.

“A body so hopelessly damaged that the only things keeping you upright are the chemicals in those pills. Your sense of control comes from brightly coloured pills.”

It’s frightening, don’t you think?
 

thank you brain, thank you so much for fucking up once again. can’t do your fucking damn job right for more a few months, can’t you?

i don’t like people today, i really don’t. i just wanna sleep the day away or something along that line.

I think I’m calmer now, not really, but yeah.

I honestly don’t know why I’m so pissed. I know, I can’t fault myself for being disappointed for that, because honestly I didn’t expect that from you, you are still a kid and with all the issues that has been goin’ around lately, just really? I probably shouldn’t have just blow it up in your face and treat you like I did, but it was really like a slap on the face. And I can’t help thinkin’ that maybe if I really made you go back home when that shit ‘bout the drugs came up, this wouldn’t have happened, none of it. But I still feel guilty for how bad I treated you, I’m sorry, thikin’ about it, maybe I shouldn’t have be such an asshole, you are my sister afterall, shouldn’t I be one to look after you too. But still I was/sill am somehow “”angry”“, I guess it’s because it hit a wound that is still somehow open and it just made me feel like that. And to be honest i’m still uneasy ‘bout everything, but I should probably just suck it up.

nope. nope. nope. not dealing with it. nope. bye.

I still don’t know why you are being so butthurt when he did no wrong.

i :) don’t :) feel :) like :) caring :) at :) all :)

remember when you said that that would be my downfall? You were so damn right.

ah ah ah ah.